I previously put together a video like this but never uploaded since it was too personal. Still might make it private again but sharing for now in hopes it helps someone.

This weekend was rough for me. The combination of Juneteenth (yes I should be happy but thinking of all the recent video footage made me feel otherwise), knowing someone at a pride concert a few friends went to was ran over and killed, having someone I liked tell me he reconciled with his ex, father’s day when mine has been gone 17 years, not seeing my family in over 2.5 years, not seeing my grandfather in 12 years, dealing with a massive blister on my leg, gaining weight back. One day I will be able to look back and laugh at it.

I’m going to see if things start improving in the next two weeks. If not I think seeing a therapist again might be helpful. Also noticing that trying to get the attention of people who are uninterested is a massive waste of time. My personality is that of an INFP but being too in my feelings can really stifle me. I kind of felt like I’m falling behind in the game of life.